Clarity of Vision

"Clarity of vision with flexibility in the process."
- unknown
“Truth is not fully explosive, but purely electric. You don't blow the world up with the truth; you shock it into motion.”  
- Criss Jami
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------


I haven't been in one place for longer than two weeks all summer. I've been on 13 different planes in the past three and half months. I have made plans, but they never go exactly how I thought they would. That's okay.
The plan has always been: go to school, go to college, get a job, husband, kids. That was it. The past six months has taught me anything it's that life is ever changing. I developed severe joint problems, suffered side effects of the medication, recovered from chronic migraines, and decided I wanted to do more with my life.





I decided to take a semester off, something severely frowned upon in todays society because statistics show that students who take time off before college are less likely to go to college. Not the case with me. I took a semester off because the college I planned to go to was too expensive and I needed to save money. I've also spent way too much time in doctors offices and quite frankly I needed a good six to eight month period where I didn't have an appointment, assessment or scan to go to. I was working a job that I hated and doing a very cookie-cutter life. There's nothing wrong with that for some people, but that is not who I am. So I stuck it out, saved the money, and traveled my butt of (seriously I've been sitting so much it actually might be flatter).
The world is full of endless possibilities. All them are possible with God, however, the possibilities are not always what we would call "good." I missed trains and lost money and my phone, the guy in front of me on the train got arrested, I couldn't afford the college I thought was my dream. But everything happens for good, believe it or not.
I got to spend some alone time in LA while I waited for the next train, that an could have hurt the people if he stayed on the train, I was boasting with my money, and it turns out my dream college is affordable and in the Virgin Islands.  



Traveling all over these past few months has shown me who I really am and what I am about. I want to change the word. I want to make this world a better place for everyone and everything on it. God did not put me here to just go through the motions, He put me here to put the motions in place, to start something bigger than me and let it spread. I am not taking this semester off to "chill" I'm taking it off to live. To see what I can do and start ideas (not plans) for the future of me. Everything is written in sand, not stone. Anything can happen, and I can't wait to see what anything will be.
Truly,
Abby


https://www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webscr?cmd=_s-xclick&hosted_button_id=BBMQ7XEP6MV6W

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

what happens when the fight doesn't stop

Image
everyone knows that when people talk about "the fight" it's usually in reference to some sort of long or short-term battle. that battle could be any number of things, the flu, cancer, a breakup, a surgery, a tumor, you get the idea. this "fight" is something an individual goes through knowing that they will (hopefully) come out the other end of. they will beat it, win the fight, and move on. but what happens when the fight doesn't stop? it's so hard to put into words what a chronic illness is like which makes it even harder to explain to people who have never heard of such things especially since i tend to be rather jovial when explaining what my chronic illnesses are and what they do to me. my desire to make sure people aren't uncomfortable ends up masking how serious these illnesses are and therefore give those people an inaccurate idea of what i'm going through. so, let me lay it out for you plain and simple. i have a degenerative c
Keep reading

Diff-Abled

Image
“I choose not to place "DIS", in my ability.” ― Robert M. Hensel ----------- Do you know how strange it is to technically be disabled by the age of 18?   I have no idea how many of you are familiar with my story. I had chronic migraines for almost three years. I should probably say migraine. One word. I had one migraine for almost a year; it put me in and out of the hospital and I missed almost two full months of school. It was all over the place and never really diagnosed, to be honest half of the doctors thought I was lying. I had MRI's, X-rays, Ultra sounds and am now a pro at ER etiquette. When you're a sick child/teenager with an illness that isn't terminal most of the time you just get left out. I'm not saying the doctors don't try, but you become graffiti in their life. Your symptoms fill a room that is supposed to turn into a beautiful painting of your condition, but more often than not it becomes a mess of pictures,
Keep reading

Are You Happy?

Image
"On a scale of 1-0 are you happy?" - Bo Burnham --------------------------------------------------------- Happiness is one of those terms that doesn't really having a true meaning. People have depression, people have other mental conditions, people have good days and bad days. Happiness is a relative term. Something closer to euphoric (I've been pretty partial to that word lately) and cheery would be better. That being said I'm going to talk about being happy anyway and use that word regardless. I just wanted to clear things up with the word and the connotations that follow it. Happiness, my dear friends, is quite a lovely thing because you can posses it even if you're having a crummy day. I meet new people every day and always get the question "how are you." It's common courtesy to ask that, but instead of answering with "good" or "fine," I've been answering with "happy." I am in a rut. I
Keep reading